What will you do?

What will you do when you know?

What will you say when you know?

Will you laugh at me?

Will you pity me?

Or will you hate me?

Honestly I am hurt

For years

And when you came around, truthfully...

at that time I wanna run

I wanna get swallowed by a giant monster

I wanna turn back time

at that time

And now when the feelings getting wilder, truthfully...

I don't know what to do

I smile, I talk, I walk, I do what I usually do

But my heart doesn't move anywhere

It cheats me because it just wants you

Sometimes I hope I could become a robot

Just wash away all these feelings

Just come back to what I usually do, my usual life, my usual

And now the contradiction not only hurt my heart, the virus keeps spreading sporadically, no mercy

I am in pain

In pain and loneliness

I am in pain

So what will you do when someday I tell you this

Because I just wanna release the pain, a little bit...just to get my breath back

Will you hate me for that?